I was telling my parents at lunch the other day I’m working on something for Sober (now “Sometimes Sober,” as you may have noticed if you’re visiting the actual site rather than reading my posts by email subscription). In the course of the conversation, my dad (who is a subscriber…hi, Dad!) told my mom that I was “trying to figure out if [I'm] an alcoholic.” Though that’s not how I’d describe my purpose here, it’s an interesting comment to reflect on.
After all, if my relationship with alcohol were not a concern of mine, why would I want to continue working on this little project? I’m as good willed as the next gal, but there’s something in it for me, too. I want my cake and I want to eat it, too. I want to exercise moderation in my indulgence and I found that the most convincing steps I’ve taken toward that goal have been accompanied by learning and self-reflection…so, I’m going to keep it up. Will this path ultimately lead me to a life of full sobriety? I dunno. Am I concerned about that right now? Nope.
But still that statement lurks in the back of my mind…”She’s trying to figure out if [she's] an alcoholic.”
I thought about this when I read this week’s article, submitted here for your reflection.
http://addiction-dirkh.blogspot.com/2010/04/no-urine-test-for-addiction.html
“…trying to figure out if [you're] an alcoholic.”
I was just wondering if Beth’s was the only other mind this statement has entered into at some point, and to what extent was it considered.